more stuff from ages ago

Hey :D
this is a diary entry i made ages ago, when i was in a very good mood :D i change the names to protect my friends privacy :) enjoy

30/04/10

Dear Diary,

I am so bored at the moment. I am down in my granny and granddads with nothing to do. I am bored waiting for Majella and Maeve to come (that is if they even come), but anyway I’ll tell you about my week: on Monday night I had so much fun talking to Jack on msn, we talked for nearly 4 hours about everything, it was nice to be able to talk to him like that and have fun while doing it. On Tuesday Bobtold me that he didn’t like me and that he just broke up with someone who he’d been going out with for 8 months, I was heartbroken at first but then I realised that I never really liked him in that way I liked him and preferred him as a friend then a boyfriend because I wouldn’t want to lose a friend like him, but if I was asked to go out with him I would probably say yes. On Wednesday I was talking to Ben for about 5 hours, I don’t really know what we talked about for that long but it was really fun and I could talk to him about anything, it was nice to get a few things off my chest. On Thursday I talked to Ben again but not for as long as the night before. On Friday I talked to Bob and it was a funny conversation I told him about the whole lifesaving thing i.e. I like John, John likes Jane, Jane likes Ciran and Ciran likes me, but Bob got confused about who I liked so I told him and then I asked him who did he like cause he asked me but I didn’t get a chance to see if he replied because I had to go down to manor. That’s really all my news for the week, bye Xx.

Lovin Life ♥
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stuff from ages ago

hey :)
this is a diary entry i made ages ago, thought you might like to read it

11/02/10


Dear Diary,



I’m so fucking pissed off. I’m in fourth year I’m meant to be having fun and living a little but all I seem to do is school and volunteer work. I have not been out and having fun since the day my junior cert ended or I haven’t been out at a disco since 2008. The one time I ask to do some and the one time I want to go out, I have to go fucking bag-packing and even if I didn’t go there’s no one to bring me. All I want to do is cry. I never have any fun in my life; I mean for god sake give me a break. Whenever I want something in my life or I’m close to doing something I want to do it gets taken away from me. I’m nearly 16 and I have never had a boyfriend and I never will cause I am a fat, ugly no social life. Sometimes I just feel so depressed like all I want to do is lie down and cry, I act like I’m fine but I’m really not. I am sick and tired of people telling me how good I am to be giving up my time to help out in clubs and how great I am in doing so well in school but what about my life? I mean I should be going out with friends, going to town or to the liffey valley. It’s sad to say this but not a week goes by when I don’t think of committing suicide, it would just be so much easier, but then I think of my family and friends once again not putting my own happiness first. Sometimes I wish I could just end it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Hating Life ♥

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